Wednesday 29/10/2025
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3_good_things_a_day1) Went to the market for flowers and fruit
2) Fixing an old scarf this afternoon
3) My new gloves really come in handy now, I don’t have to take them off to use my phone ^__^
2) Fixing an old scarf this afternoon
3) My new gloves really come in handy now, I don’t have to take them off to use my phone ^__^
Hanging just beyond.
Oct. 28th, 2025 09:27 pmhannahIt's my Livejournal's birthday today. I'm always a little taken aback when I get the emails about it - a bit of "really? that thing's still on?" and a bit of "it has been a while since high school." Most years it passes by with just those thoughts, a day in, a day out, and for most of today it was going that route up until I heard Cameron Crowe at Symphony Space.
Not Cameron Crowe for the innate value of Crowe himself, not Crowe for the shine of someone worth all the applause, not for someone who said Joni Mitchell could talk in third drafts and said music is a way to tattoo moments. He spoke well, he read aloud with a lot of charm, he answered questions thoughtfully, and when the interviewer asked the last question of the night - whether there was still hope for music to blow his mind the way it used to. Crowe leaned over, put his hand on his arm, and said to keep hoping. Words to that effect, at least; I lost the exact phrase in the immediate applause right after. And very much words to that effect. Keep hoping, stay open, keep listening.
It sparked the memory of my dad saying it's hard for music to hit him the way it used to, and of several memories reading different people's comments that they wish music could hit them the way it did when they were in high school, or college, or some other point in their life that's simply when they were younger and, I suspect, didn't have as much on their minds and hadn't heard nearly as much music. It goes beyond having listened to a lot more and having had the world sand down a lot of the edges. There's some of it - how much, I don't know - about not being open to having your mind blown. Of course it takes more work to blow your mind when it's already been blown so many times already. And to say it can't, it won't, is to commit to a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you're not open to it, if you don't keep looking, of course it won't happen.
I got a lot of good music in college and grad school, true. And I've heard so much since then, I'll often come across a new song and it'll strike me as a very good one, a superb variant on something I already know, a clever turn of phrase that's a pleasant arrangement of words. And I'm still willing and open to hearing new music, and it's true it doesn't happen as often that I hear a song that makes the world feel absolutely new, and it's true that it still happens.
My Livejournal's old enough to graduate college. It would've spent the last four years listening to music it never could've imagined, and in a density and intensity that's probably not going to come around again. And it's going to be listening to more music than it can believe.
To stay open and keep listening. To periodically get a reminder to keep hoping.
Not Cameron Crowe for the innate value of Crowe himself, not Crowe for the shine of someone worth all the applause, not for someone who said Joni Mitchell could talk in third drafts and said music is a way to tattoo moments. He spoke well, he read aloud with a lot of charm, he answered questions thoughtfully, and when the interviewer asked the last question of the night - whether there was still hope for music to blow his mind the way it used to. Crowe leaned over, put his hand on his arm, and said to keep hoping. Words to that effect, at least; I lost the exact phrase in the immediate applause right after. And very much words to that effect. Keep hoping, stay open, keep listening.
It sparked the memory of my dad saying it's hard for music to hit him the way it used to, and of several memories reading different people's comments that they wish music could hit them the way it did when they were in high school, or college, or some other point in their life that's simply when they were younger and, I suspect, didn't have as much on their minds and hadn't heard nearly as much music. It goes beyond having listened to a lot more and having had the world sand down a lot of the edges. There's some of it - how much, I don't know - about not being open to having your mind blown. Of course it takes more work to blow your mind when it's already been blown so many times already. And to say it can't, it won't, is to commit to a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you're not open to it, if you don't keep looking, of course it won't happen.
I got a lot of good music in college and grad school, true. And I've heard so much since then, I'll often come across a new song and it'll strike me as a very good one, a superb variant on something I already know, a clever turn of phrase that's a pleasant arrangement of words. And I'm still willing and open to hearing new music, and it's true it doesn't happen as often that I hear a song that makes the world feel absolutely new, and it's true that it still happens.
My Livejournal's old enough to graduate college. It would've spent the last four years listening to music it never could've imagined, and in a density and intensity that's probably not going to come around again. And it's going to be listening to more music than it can believe.
To stay open and keep listening. To periodically get a reminder to keep hoping.
~You'll get mustard all over his brain!
Oct. 28th, 2025 05:50 pmzarlaOkay, the surgery went well and Gatsby is back home! They said he was a very good boy for it, haha. Truly the most perfect baby in the world. Anyway his face right now looks rather gruesome, poor thing, but it's mostly the cone that's tripping him up right now. Going to be tricky for him to get used to it! But he's gotta deal with it for two weeks. Last I checked on him he was just resting on one of the couches downstairs, so hopefully he's feeling okay. The swelling and bruising should go down over the next couple of days.
His meds I think I can hide in his food fairly well, he's usually pretty good about that. I hope he doesn't give me trouble! One of the meds is liquid which I haven't really administered before... I've tried to hide liquid ones in treats before but he was not into it, haha. I might just have to get in there and do it, but maybe it won't be so bad. Just gotta do what you gotta do! After two weeks I'll take him back and they'll take out the sutures and he'll be free from the cone. Hopefully he'll heal up fine.
They sent off his eye to pathology, but they won't get back to me about that for another two weeks or so, so we still don't know what exactly was wrong with his eye. I really hope it was just a benign thing... otherwise he really seems fine, but I dunno. Am I just prolonging the inevitable? I guess we all are to a degree. Can you put a price on every new day you spend with your pets? I've made my decision, I don't regret it. Mostly I just hope I'll have more time with him. Hopefully I will! No reason to worry about it now, there's nothing I can do about it until the reports get back.
In the meantime, I don't have to do his eyedrops anymore, haha. He was very good about them but it was tedious and neither of us liked it too much. Hopefully he'll be good for me about these new meds too...
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His meds I think I can hide in his food fairly well, he's usually pretty good about that. I hope he doesn't give me trouble! One of the meds is liquid which I haven't really administered before... I've tried to hide liquid ones in treats before but he was not into it, haha. I might just have to get in there and do it, but maybe it won't be so bad. Just gotta do what you gotta do! After two weeks I'll take him back and they'll take out the sutures and he'll be free from the cone. Hopefully he'll heal up fine.
They sent off his eye to pathology, but they won't get back to me about that for another two weeks or so, so we still don't know what exactly was wrong with his eye. I really hope it was just a benign thing... otherwise he really seems fine, but I dunno. Am I just prolonging the inevitable? I guess we all are to a degree. Can you put a price on every new day you spend with your pets? I've made my decision, I don't regret it. Mostly I just hope I'll have more time with him. Hopefully I will! No reason to worry about it now, there's nothing I can do about it until the reports get back.
In the meantime, I don't have to do his eyedrops anymore, haha. He was very good about them but it was tedious and neither of us liked it too much. Hopefully he'll be good for me about these new meds too...
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Oct. 28th, 2025 09:04 amzarlaAlright, dropped him off at the eye place... they'll let me know when they start surgery on him. Gatsby's at a slight risk since he has a heart murmur and he has hyperthyroidism but hopefully it'll be okay... ugh I'm so anxious.
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Oct. 28th, 2025 09:02 amcamwynSome days I think I have too much stuff in my pockets and ought to clear out my jacket, backpack, heavy work jeans, etc.
And some days I see TAKE AMERICA BACK IN 2024 bumper stickers plastered on street signs within arm's reach of a reasonably tall person like myself, and I remember that a good portion of the stuff in my various pockets is FRAGILE packing stickers and WARNING: BULLSHIT stickers of decent size and durability.
*wanders off humming cheerfully*
And some days I see TAKE AMERICA BACK IN 2024 bumper stickers plastered on street signs within arm's reach of a reasonably tall person like myself, and I remember that a good portion of the stuff in my various pockets is FRAGILE packing stickers and WARNING: BULLSHIT stickers of decent size and durability.
*wanders off humming cheerfully*
Tuesday 28/10/2025
Oct. 28th, 2025 10:15 amlhune posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) I’ve found a good spray to make my clothes/shoes/bags somewhat waterproof, whatever helps
2) Lots of tea to keep warm
3) Pilates this evening
2) Lots of tea to keep warm
3) Pilates this evening
DC Minis #10 – Dark Science High School (Part 6)
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Monday 27/10/2025
Oct. 27th, 2025 10:09 amlhune posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) I love the winterhour/no longer daylight saving time, this is much more my natural time ^_^
2) Clean bedlinen for tonight
3) Still watching the old series, pure escapism for me ^^
2) Clean bedlinen for tonight
3) Still watching the old series, pure escapism for me ^^
257 icons - wind breaker
Oct. 26th, 2025 03:43 pmchrysalid posting in animeicons
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caleidoscope.Sunday 26/10/2025
Oct. 26th, 2025 10:19 amlhune posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) First coffee this morning on my sunny balcony (the sunshine makes such a difference)
2) Long hot shower
3) Dinner at my parents’s place and maybe visiting my godchild
2) Long hot shower
3) Dinner at my parents’s place and maybe visiting my godchild
Not hyperbole.
Oct. 25th, 2025 09:42 pmhannahWhen I held my niece A. this afternoon, I told her parents J. and E. that she weighed a bit more than a golden eagle. They didn't know how much that was. I told them it was about as much as a housecat. They didn't know how much that was, either.
I can get not knowing the golden eagle. It's the housecat that's baffling me. J. and I didn't grow up with a cat and, apparently, neither did E., but I'd think they'd both have a heuristic model for that already. It's possible that given my social circles, I might be over-estimating how common housecats are across the United States.
But that's not the best part of the afternoon.
Months ago, I had a dream - a literal dream - about a russet potato dessert. When I told the internet about it, someone pointed me towards white potato pie. I knew I had to make it someday, and when my younger brother R.'s birthday came around, it seemed like a good fit. Last year it was a carrot pie, and this year it's potato.
The recipe I used made enough batter for two nine-inch pie shells, so he got two pies. I had some blueberries in my freezer, so I made an easy spiced blueberry compote to go with the pie. We all had some this afternoon, and rarely do I get the chance to mean it when I say it was the stuff dreams are made of.
I can get not knowing the golden eagle. It's the housecat that's baffling me. J. and I didn't grow up with a cat and, apparently, neither did E., but I'd think they'd both have a heuristic model for that already. It's possible that given my social circles, I might be over-estimating how common housecats are across the United States.
But that's not the best part of the afternoon.
Months ago, I had a dream - a literal dream - about a russet potato dessert. When I told the internet about it, someone pointed me towards white potato pie. I knew I had to make it someday, and when my younger brother R.'s birthday came around, it seemed like a good fit. Last year it was a carrot pie, and this year it's potato.
The recipe I used made enough batter for two nine-inch pie shells, so he got two pies. I had some blueberries in my freezer, so I made an easy spiced blueberry compote to go with the pie. We all had some this afternoon, and rarely do I get the chance to mean it when I say it was the stuff dreams are made of.
Database maintenance
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dw_maintenanceGood morning, afternoon, and evening!
We're doing some database and other light server maintenance this weekend (upgrading the version of MySQL we use in particular, but also probably doing some CDN work.)
I expect all of this to be pretty invisible except for some small "couple of minute" blips as we switch between machines, but there's a chance you will notice something untoward. I'll keep an eye on comments as per usual.
Ta for now!
Saturday 25/10/2025
Oct. 25th, 2025 11:15 amlhune posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) Wearing new clothes which is always great
2) Re-watching an older tv-series
3) I’m comfortable and warm inside while it’s raining ^_^
2) Re-watching an older tv-series
3) I’m comfortable and warm inside while it’s raining ^_^
Friday 24/10/2025
Oct. 24th, 2025 04:32 pmlhune posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) Went shopping with my mum and found a couple of items to face the colder days
2) Enjoyed a delicious lunch in the city
3) Lots and lots of tea because it’s yummy and warm
2) Enjoyed a delicious lunch in the city
3) Lots and lots of tea because it’s yummy and warm
Thursday Recs
Oct. 23rd, 2025 09:50 pmsoc_puppet posting in queerly_belovedScooting in with some Thursday Recs!
Do you have a rec for this week? Just reply to this post with something queer or queer-adjacent (such as, soap made by a queer person that isn't necessarily queer themed) that you'd, well, recommend. Self-recs are welcome, as are recs for fandom-related content!
Or have you tried something that's been recced here? Do you have your own report to share about it? I'd love to hear about it!
Do you have a rec for this week? Just reply to this post with something queer or queer-adjacent (such as, soap made by a queer person that isn't necessarily queer themed) that you'd, well, recommend. Self-recs are welcome, as are recs for fandom-related content!
Or have you tried something that's been recced here? Do you have your own report to share about it? I'd love to hear about it!
October 23, 2025
Oct. 23rd, 2025 08:41 pmsp2_feed
First Comic Previous Comic Next Comic Today’s Comic Latest Updates
Oh, hey. A table top rpg I did art for is funding on BackerKit. The Cryptid Show has reached goal, but there’s a new stretch goal where I get to do more illustrations. Consider backing it so I can give you more “delightful” creatures like these. -R.
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Oct. 23rd, 2025 10:36 amcamwynI use Tuta.de for my email hosting and I've downloaded the Tuta app for my email client. It's set to not show images by default, just placeholders.
I get a lot of email from RPG sellers of various types. I get a RIDICULOUS amount of email from political organizations.
I do not always look at the Sender part of the message first, as the Tuta client uses a smaller font for the sender and other information than most senders specify for their default body text. Some of the senders use VERY LARGE text for an eye-grab at the top of their emails before going on to the regular lettering.
All of which is a roundabout way to say that for a few gloriously entertaining seconds I thought I had an email from the people at the Women's March that began with “WE ARE THE FURY OF THE STORM AND THE PITILESS WRATH OF ENDLESS WINTER.”
Yet again, the world I see out of the corner of my eye is way more entertaining than what's there when I look at it directly.
I get a lot of email from RPG sellers of various types. I get a RIDICULOUS amount of email from political organizations.
I do not always look at the Sender part of the message first, as the Tuta client uses a smaller font for the sender and other information than most senders specify for their default body text. Some of the senders use VERY LARGE text for an eye-grab at the top of their emails before going on to the regular lettering.
All of which is a roundabout way to say that for a few gloriously entertaining seconds I thought I had an email from the people at the Women's March that began with “WE ARE THE FURY OF THE STORM AND THE PITILESS WRATH OF ENDLESS WINTER.”
Yet again, the world I see out of the corner of my eye is way more entertaining than what's there when I look at it directly.
Thursday 23/10/2025
Oct. 23rd, 2025 03:51 pmlhune posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) No alarm this morning and I could sleep in ^_^
2) I do not have to go out while a storm is blowing over the country, just reading a good book while the wind is howling
3) Doing the skipped Pilates lesson from Tuesday this evening
2) I do not have to go out while a storm is blowing over the country, just reading a good book while the wind is howling
3) Doing the skipped Pilates lesson from Tuesday this evening
~We will become silhouettes
Oct. 22nd, 2025 09:00 pmzarlaOof, had a rough couple of days. I went to go see Alex for his birthday last weekend, and it was fun to see him again but it does make me a little sad to go there. His house looks really nice, it's really lovely and he loves it there, and I guess it just emphasizes that gulf of distance that can only really be temporarily crossed. I don't want to live in the desert, and he doesn't want to leave it. It's just how it is. He's been busy lately so we haven't had much time to play games together either.
I was already feeling kind of melancholy after I got back, but then my mom found an old bag of Nana's that had a lot of photos of hers I hadn't seen before. More than that though, it had the note that she had taped up to her wall. Nana sometimes wrote out things on paper and taped them up for whatever reason. I don't remember exactly when she taped up this particular one, but it was basically her begging God to help her or save her when she was sick. Every time I went into her room to check on her or get her for treatment or ask her something or when she needed help, I'd see that note on the wall just "please please god help me" and it broke my heart. I never talked about it and she never talked about it but it was always just there, hanging there. I'd kind of forgotten about it until I saw it again and it just rocketed me right back to that time period again. I guess I was kind of numb when I first saw it and then the pain of it hit me more slowly through the night. I ended up crying for a while about it at various points over the past few days. Grief never really leaves you, I guess. Mostly just feel tired and sad.
Today I took Gatsby in for a follow-up on his eye. I forget if I mentioned this here or not, but Gatsby's left eye started looking strange a while back, so I went to get it checked out at an opthalmologist. They can't tell what's wrong with his eye exactly, but something is clearly wrong with it. The pressure in it is sky high and he's lost vision in it, and it's probably causing him constant headaches. I tried one course of medication which got the pressure down a bit, and this second course I was hoping would help even more. His eye looked better to me! But when I took him in it turned out his eye pressure was sky high again, and while his eye didn't look as dark as it did before, his pupil is strangely shaped now, which points to some kind of tumor in there. They recommended the first time that I get the eye taken out, but it's such an expensive procedure... it'll run some 3700$ or so, which is just, a LOT.
I was hoping the eyedrops would help with it. The cost of the operation is considerable of course, but I was also worried about him in other respects... he's older now, like 14, and I'm worried a bit about how he'd handle the anesthesia. I'm worried about if they send the eye out to get checked and it turns out he's got some kind of malignant cancer in him somewhere. It could be a benign tumor in his eye, they can't be sure. The other eye is fine and he otherwise seems to be behaving normally, although he walks a bit slowly and he sleeps a lot. I can see blood in there sometimes too, but not all the time.
I don't know. I'm taking him in tomorrow for a blood panel, since the eyedrop meds also have their own side-effects. I feel like at this point I have to get the operation done, things point to it just getting worse as the meds stop working, and what if it spreads to his other eye? I keep feeling guilty about not taking him in sooner, like if I'd just been more proactive about it maybe it wouldn't have gotten this bad. I felt like this about Nana too, like if I'd just encouraged or pressured her more to get checked out by doctors sooner then she'd still be alive. I guess both situations are kind of echoing each other and leaving me in kind of a bad place. I got some dustjar ideas the other night which hasn't happened in a while.
I feel really tired and heavy. I haven't gotten too much sleep. It feels like there's stuff happening every day this week. I want to draw but I can't find the time, or when I do I can't get started, or when I do I feel guilty I'm not doing the next Defrag page, but I never feel like I can find enough time to finish it. I think that might just be an excuse to not start on it. This could all be a combination of a lot of things though, really. Contributing factors. There usually isn't a simple explanation for things.
If I do get Gatsby's eye out, and everything goes well, then he'll be laid out for two weeks and I'll have to keep an eye on him, keep him medicated, all of that. Once those two weeks are up and he gets the sutures out though, then he should just be good to go. Like after that, his life should just go back to normal, and he can go back to just the thyroid medicine each morning/night, which is actually super easy. I just grind up the tablets and put it in a treat and he eats it right up, not even a problem. Right now, or well, up to today, I was giving him eyedrops three times a day... and morning/night there were two drops that I had to stagger by 10 minutes, so it was a bit of a time investment... there's all this stuff to do but I felt kind of tethered by making sure I got Gatsby's drops all done in time. I think I did a pretty good job... I missed a few drops here or there, or a day or two due to stuff happening, but I tried to be really consistent with it. I mentioned that to the vet tech and she said it was unlikely anything I did would have messed anything up...
I don't know. I have some money saved up, I can afford to get the procedure done, I think... I'll have to see what the blood panel says when they get it back. They're checking it to make sure he'd be good for surgery, as well as the side-effects of the medication. It's possible maybe they can't do the surgery and there'll just be nothing I can do, and I'll just watch him die. No, those are grief thoughts, I can't take those seriously. My head is just in a really weird place right now. I love Gatsby so much, I don't want to lose him. I'm trying my best with him. Maybe if I got him in sooner it wouldn't have done anything. It probably doesn't help to think about it either way.
I haven't been getting much sleep lately which also probably doesn't help. There's so much to do and it feels like Halloween is so close. No idea what to wear or what I'll do, or what to draw. What I need is to eat and sleep and take a shower and not let this kind of stuff eat at me.
It turned out my niece came over while I was at the vet's, so when I got home I had to put on a kind of more upbeat kid-watching tone/face, which I could do just about although I didn't have a lot of energy. Gatsby was walking around meowing after I let him out of the carrier, but now he's just sleeping so I hope he's not in any pain or anything. I think he just gets huffy after I take him to the vet, like how dare I do that to him! He's probably going to be unhappy tomorrow when I take him in AGAIN, I'll have to try and sneak up on him quickly. It'll be early in the morning, so I shouldn't stay up too late tonight... I don't have anything drawn for Friday, I barely managed to get something done for today. Am I going to have time sometime on Thursday to get something done...? If I can focus enough when I do.
This is really kind of a stream of consciousness thing, but that's what journals are really meant for after all, haha. Just a lot going on lately...
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I was already feeling kind of melancholy after I got back, but then my mom found an old bag of Nana's that had a lot of photos of hers I hadn't seen before. More than that though, it had the note that she had taped up to her wall. Nana sometimes wrote out things on paper and taped them up for whatever reason. I don't remember exactly when she taped up this particular one, but it was basically her begging God to help her or save her when she was sick. Every time I went into her room to check on her or get her for treatment or ask her something or when she needed help, I'd see that note on the wall just "please please god help me" and it broke my heart. I never talked about it and she never talked about it but it was always just there, hanging there. I'd kind of forgotten about it until I saw it again and it just rocketed me right back to that time period again. I guess I was kind of numb when I first saw it and then the pain of it hit me more slowly through the night. I ended up crying for a while about it at various points over the past few days. Grief never really leaves you, I guess. Mostly just feel tired and sad.
Today I took Gatsby in for a follow-up on his eye. I forget if I mentioned this here or not, but Gatsby's left eye started looking strange a while back, so I went to get it checked out at an opthalmologist. They can't tell what's wrong with his eye exactly, but something is clearly wrong with it. The pressure in it is sky high and he's lost vision in it, and it's probably causing him constant headaches. I tried one course of medication which got the pressure down a bit, and this second course I was hoping would help even more. His eye looked better to me! But when I took him in it turned out his eye pressure was sky high again, and while his eye didn't look as dark as it did before, his pupil is strangely shaped now, which points to some kind of tumor in there. They recommended the first time that I get the eye taken out, but it's such an expensive procedure... it'll run some 3700$ or so, which is just, a LOT.
I was hoping the eyedrops would help with it. The cost of the operation is considerable of course, but I was also worried about him in other respects... he's older now, like 14, and I'm worried a bit about how he'd handle the anesthesia. I'm worried about if they send the eye out to get checked and it turns out he's got some kind of malignant cancer in him somewhere. It could be a benign tumor in his eye, they can't be sure. The other eye is fine and he otherwise seems to be behaving normally, although he walks a bit slowly and he sleeps a lot. I can see blood in there sometimes too, but not all the time.
I don't know. I'm taking him in tomorrow for a blood panel, since the eyedrop meds also have their own side-effects. I feel like at this point I have to get the operation done, things point to it just getting worse as the meds stop working, and what if it spreads to his other eye? I keep feeling guilty about not taking him in sooner, like if I'd just been more proactive about it maybe it wouldn't have gotten this bad. I felt like this about Nana too, like if I'd just encouraged or pressured her more to get checked out by doctors sooner then she'd still be alive. I guess both situations are kind of echoing each other and leaving me in kind of a bad place. I got some dustjar ideas the other night which hasn't happened in a while.
I feel really tired and heavy. I haven't gotten too much sleep. It feels like there's stuff happening every day this week. I want to draw but I can't find the time, or when I do I can't get started, or when I do I feel guilty I'm not doing the next Defrag page, but I never feel like I can find enough time to finish it. I think that might just be an excuse to not start on it. This could all be a combination of a lot of things though, really. Contributing factors. There usually isn't a simple explanation for things.
If I do get Gatsby's eye out, and everything goes well, then he'll be laid out for two weeks and I'll have to keep an eye on him, keep him medicated, all of that. Once those two weeks are up and he gets the sutures out though, then he should just be good to go. Like after that, his life should just go back to normal, and he can go back to just the thyroid medicine each morning/night, which is actually super easy. I just grind up the tablets and put it in a treat and he eats it right up, not even a problem. Right now, or well, up to today, I was giving him eyedrops three times a day... and morning/night there were two drops that I had to stagger by 10 minutes, so it was a bit of a time investment... there's all this stuff to do but I felt kind of tethered by making sure I got Gatsby's drops all done in time. I think I did a pretty good job... I missed a few drops here or there, or a day or two due to stuff happening, but I tried to be really consistent with it. I mentioned that to the vet tech and she said it was unlikely anything I did would have messed anything up...
I don't know. I have some money saved up, I can afford to get the procedure done, I think... I'll have to see what the blood panel says when they get it back. They're checking it to make sure he'd be good for surgery, as well as the side-effects of the medication. It's possible maybe they can't do the surgery and there'll just be nothing I can do, and I'll just watch him die. No, those are grief thoughts, I can't take those seriously. My head is just in a really weird place right now. I love Gatsby so much, I don't want to lose him. I'm trying my best with him. Maybe if I got him in sooner it wouldn't have done anything. It probably doesn't help to think about it either way.
I haven't been getting much sleep lately which also probably doesn't help. There's so much to do and it feels like Halloween is so close. No idea what to wear or what I'll do, or what to draw. What I need is to eat and sleep and take a shower and not let this kind of stuff eat at me.
It turned out my niece came over while I was at the vet's, so when I got home I had to put on a kind of more upbeat kid-watching tone/face, which I could do just about although I didn't have a lot of energy. Gatsby was walking around meowing after I let him out of the carrier, but now he's just sleeping so I hope he's not in any pain or anything. I think he just gets huffy after I take him to the vet, like how dare I do that to him! He's probably going to be unhappy tomorrow when I take him in AGAIN, I'll have to try and sneak up on him quickly. It'll be early in the morning, so I shouldn't stay up too late tonight... I don't have anything drawn for Friday, I barely managed to get something done for today. Am I going to have time sometime on Thursday to get something done...? If I can focus enough when I do.
This is really kind of a stream of consciousness thing, but that's what journals are really meant for after all, haha. Just a lot going on lately...
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Yuletide letter
Oct. 22nd, 2025 05:56 pmceitfiannaThank you so much for writing for me. I love Yuletide, one of my favorite parts of winter. I know how heavy these fandoms can be so if there's any darkness, add some light too. My favorite sorts of stories are missing moments, character studies and that feel as if they fit within the world of the canon.
I love all of these fandoms because of the depth of the worlds and the characters, I enjoy action and plot if it fits. When a writer can pull off a complex plot, I love it as that's something I'm not good at writing. If you choose to include sex and violence, I ask that if they're there; no rape/dubcon or torture. All of the ones I've asked for are from worlds with difficult aspects to them and I enjoy how the characters interact with and are changed by what's around them. Also even though I've only requested one or two characters, all of these canons revolve around large and complex casts, so please add others into the mix.
( The Old Kingdom, Incryptid, Critical Role: Aramán, Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance )
I love all of these fandoms because of the depth of the worlds and the characters, I enjoy action and plot if it fits. When a writer can pull off a complex plot, I love it as that's something I'm not good at writing. If you choose to include sex and violence, I ask that if they're there; no rape/dubcon or torture. All of the ones I've asked for are from worlds with difficult aspects to them and I enjoy how the characters interact with and are changed by what's around them. Also even though I've only requested one or two characters, all of these canons revolve around large and complex casts, so please add others into the mix.
( The Old Kingdom, Incryptid, Critical Role: Aramán, Dark Crystal: Age of Resistance )
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Oct. 22nd, 2025 03:23 pmcamwynTurns out you can reopen a closed Etsy shop almost any time you want as long as you make sure to back it up with an active credit card and renew all your listings. I've closed the shop, contacted the colo place to cancel my subscription, and informed the City of Boston that I am no longer in business and will not be renewing my permit this year.
Anyone interested in jewelry from me, ask me about holiday or birthday gifts instead.
Anyone interested in jewelry from me, ask me about holiday or birthday gifts instead.
Today on Medical Shit I Can't Believe I Only Just Found Out About:
Oct. 22nd, 2025 12:58 pmcamwynProctalgia fugax and its evil cousin levator ani syndrome. ( They are not Warhammer 40k characters. They just sound like it. )
Wednesday 22/10/2025
Oct. 22nd, 2025 10:36 amdark_kana posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) Spontaneously took the afternoon off from work
2) A nice hot shower
3) Working on my crochet projects. I'm having fun again ^^
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Oct. 21st, 2025 03:18 pmcamwynConsidering shutting down my Etsy store. Haven't actually made jewelry in months (mostly I've been sewing instead), haven't made a sale in months, and since the Etsy store isn't in my legal name I have to have a DBA certificate, which means I have to have a business address, and since I rent an apartment I can't actually operate the business out of the apartment due to insurance issues (I checked with the landlord). Neither Boston nor the town I live in will let a business register with a PO box as their primary address so I have to pay monthly fees at a colocation space and that's expensive. It makes no sense to keep the Etsy store existing if I'm not actually making enough jewelry to need to sell any of it off.
If anyone has an alternative to colo that means I don't have to pay more per month than I actually ever sold (I made a profit for a while some time back but the colo space upped their prices and now there's nowhere in Boston that charges a reasonable price for just having their address rather than actually using their space), let me know.
If anyone has an alternative to colo that means I don't have to pay more per month than I actually ever sold (I made a profit for a while some time back but the colo space upped their prices and now there's nowhere in Boston that charges a reasonable price for just having their address rather than actually using their space), let me know.
Tuesday 21/10/2025
Oct. 21st, 2025 09:34 amdark_kana posting in 3_good_things_a_day1) ginger tea and again a hot water bottle. And if needed, the electric blanket is nearby :-)
2) Reading during lunchbreak
3) and working on my crochet projects this evening *grins* It feels good to be crocheting again :D